I don't know . . .

He made me smile today just by saying simple words and it was straight to the point but.. Hmm... =.=

=.=

Pain in my heart waking up missing you.. =.=

Hmm...

Somehow, I know you don't need me anymore to be around you like I used to. I hope you'll find your happiness with her and I will always pray for that. Don't worry about me, I'll be fine as long as you're happy. =) Take good care of yourself kayy. Don't forget about my nasihat. Do not text while driving. Hee I'm deeply missing you. =) Until then.

Sorry for not replying your text.

Anyway, I MISS YOU TOO. Until then. =.=

If only you knew. .

It's not easy for me to stay away from you. I'm doing this just for awhile until I get over everything but deep inside, I really miss you. Only God knows how much I miss you. =.=

I Miss You. . .

I miss to hear you say you miss me.
I miss when we're missing each other.
I miss to hear your voice.
I miss all about us.
I miss you..

Sedetik lebih . . .

Setelah 18 tahun Ara menetap di rumah No.3, akhirnya tibalah masa untuk berhijrah ke kawasan baru. I will seriously miss my room cause dalam bilik tu lah yang menjadi saksi tumbesaran Ara. Saksi yang melihat Ara bahagia dan menangis. Walaupun ia tak bernyawa, ia hanya sebuah bilik, Ara tetap tak akan lupakan setiap detik yang berlaku di dalam bilik itu. =.=

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Boy: Goodbye.
Girl: Why?
Boy: I found someone better.
Girl: I did too but I close my eyes just to be with you.

From far . . I'll always pray for you . .

Lagi beberapa hari awak akan masuk ke dunia baru. I'm sad cause tak dapat teman awak lalui hari-hari tersebut. I hope your new environment will treat you nicely. Hope You'll make the right choice. All the best for everything. I know I don't have the right to say this cause I'm nobody to you but please jangan lupa pesan I taw.. DON'T TEXT WHILE YOU'RE DRIVING. Bahayaaaa. =.= Jaga diri awak baik-baik kay. =)

The first thing that came to my mind.

Today, I woke up. Like usual, You're the first thing that came to my mind. =.= Hmm, I really miss you. >.< How to get over kalau hari-hari macam ni? =(

Words.

Those things or words that I did or say to you everyday.
I won't do it if I'm not into you but you didn't realize it. I shouldn't do all those things to you cause you are not mine.
But I did because that's what my heart wanted me to do. I stop doing those things after I did my confession cause I was afraid, you might feel awkward, deep inside I'm dying to keep doing all those things to you. Actually, I still did but I did it in silence as in silence there's no rejection.
If only you knew how I deeply miss to say those words to you. =(
I hope she will do those things to you but in her own way in order to replace the emptiness that I've made. =.=
Haih penatlah speaking. Hmm, bila semua jadi mcm ni,ia buat Ara rasa, Ara patut pendam semuanya, so Ara masih boleh buat apa yang Ara dah terbiasa buat tapi Ara hanyalah seorang manusia biasa yang mempunyai perasaan dan mampu merasa sakit. >.< Untuk memendam dan selalu menghilang kerana perlu menanggung rasa sakit kemudian memberi alasan yang tiada kena mengena dengan yang sebenarnya bukan diri saya. Lebih baik saya jujur dan mendapat sedikit ketenangan tapi sumpah sakit jugak sebab untuk jauh dari awak, hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang saya terpaksa rasa dan tanggung sekarang ni. =.= Tapi awak jgn risau, saya okay(tipu sunat). Semoga awak bahagia dengan dia. =)

5 more days to go.

1st of june. It's my birthday but I know, somehow I won't be happy on that day. The free calls. What's the point of me dapat buat free calls if I can't call the person that I've been dreaming to talk to on my birthday. I can't even spend my special day with him. =( It will be the most sad birthday ever. >.<

Hmm . . .

Trying hard.

I just follow my heart. Sometimes, maybe too often, I follow my pain. I'm trying hard to stop doing that. It ain't easy but I guess now, I am Comfortably Numb. >.<

=.=

=)

Everything that I did,
They are not just an action.
All the text that I gave,
They are not just a message.
All the songs that I sang,
They are not just a song.
All the things that I said,
They are not just a word.
Cause everything that I said and done,
I really mean it and it's for real.

Wonders.

There are times when I'd stare the sky at night and wonder why You are my entire universe when I’m not even a little star in yours. =.=

Dream.

In my mind, I have a lot of things that I would like to say to you everyday, day and night but I can only say those things in my dream. =.= Sometimes, dreams are way better than reality.

TAKRINDUTAKRINDUTAKRINDU!

Okay tipu! Haihh! =.=
I Miss You. >.<

Bread and Butter.

I know you don't think of me.
And you certainly would never picture us together but probably peanut butter was just peanut butter before someone ever thought of pairing it up with jelly.
And there was salt but it started to taste better when there was pepper.
And what's the point of butter without bread?
Anyway, by myself, I'm nothing special.
But with you, I think I could be. =)

Rocketeer.

When the right time comes, I won't be texting 24/7 again.
My phone will be less ringing.
I won't buy top up as often as before.
Cause I have no body to text to like we did.
No one will ask me to call at night just to listen to my voice.
Each morning, You're the reason I smiled just by receiving good morning text that wakes me up everyday and I never let my day end without wishing you goodnight.
I'm not sure how am I going to go through all these but I'll try my best to get use to it.
I will surely miss to hear my phone rings with that SPECIAL RINGTONE.
But I will miss the person who made me wrote this entry most.
I'm gonna miss you, I will surely do. >.<
Thanks for the happiness that you brought into my life even it was just for awhile.
The memories? I will keep and lock deep inside my heart forever, promise. =)

1995

In March 1995, 3 months before my birthday. I almost died cause I'm having a very hot fever.
Now, when life treats me bad, sometimes this question popped in mind.
"Why didn't I stop breathing at that time?"
Then I won't have to bear any pain.
But now I realize that, there must be a special reason to why I am still breathing until now. And I'm still waiting for that to happen. InsyaAllah. =)

Sedang mengumpul kekuatan . . .

Be strong Ara, Be strong . . =.=

A part of my life . . .

One day, we might forget the people that once came to our lives.
But I know that when that day comes,
I won’t forget you.
Cause you didn’t just come into my life, you became a part of it. =)

=.=

I never intended to be the most important person in your life.
That is just too much to ask.
But I do hope that I’d cross your mind and you’d smile thinking that I touched your life in a special way.

If I were to fall in love again . . .

I would love someone who show me and the world just how much he loves me.
Who knows the tears behind my laughters.
Who knows when to support me from the back and let me fight my battle.
Know when to step in and take the fight for me and defend me in the front line.
Who knows my broken heart and carefully glue them all even when he knows it's gonna be fragile.
Who's not afraid to fight for me and never let me go.
Who's willing to do the best to understand me and do more when the best is not enough..
Cause...
I would do just the same.. =)

Strength . . .

It takes a lot of strength to hold on but sometimes, it takes much more strength to just let go and move on...

Waiting . . .

That mysterious man, the one of my dreams, for which I am forever... Waiting.

When a heart breaks, It don't break even.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Coz when a heart breaks, No it don't break even.
What am I supposed to do when THE BEST PART of me was AlWAYS YOU,
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok.
They say bad things happen for a reason,
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding.

Breakeven-The Script

=.=

Akan kuatkah kaki yang melangkah, bila disapa duri yang menanti,
Akan kaburkah mata yang menatap, pada debu yang pastikan hinggap?